456
is the number of resolutions i have for myself. not really but kinda. i never do anything like that for fear of failing. so this year i just make a huge list and what i accomplish i will be so happy about.
i made my resolutions yesterday, and started them yesterday as well. Jan 1st will be a clean start for me. i much needed one. i am simply just releasing all the “crap” in my life. taking in beauty to the fullest, writing more, reading much more, indulging myself into music instead of ben&jerrys coffee flavored icecream…but a treat every now and again is totally gonna have to happen.
“you only live once” so this year i am giving myself the gift of a year to just take this year and make it mine. i think i say that every year but i am so ready this year.
this year in music is going to be great….many fun things however my fav of course is the Ryan Adams show. my first concert. i have that feeling of excitment as if it was my first concert…i remember my first concert The Cranberrys. so good. its funny how certain albums remind me of a certain year in my life or a certain moment. the cranberrys, the pretenders, ani difranco, bob dylan, bright eyes, and ryan adams and the cards…those are the most memoriable. oh and of course amos lee. i am sure i a missing millions but those are the few that come to mind. i really want to venture out and find new loves and make new memories.
love, i have no time for it in my life. not ready. not even close. so i dont have to worry about that one!!!
writing. i do it here and there and sometimes there and here but i need to do it more. my brain sometimes gets filled up with thoughts words stories potions and i just fall apart, cry, get overwhelmed, scream, and then never do anythign about it.. not anymore. i will express them the best i can. even if i dont want to write, i will take a picture of exactly how i feel and post it in my journal.
i will mend the broken heart i have during this year. which is why i am not ready for any kind of relationship…my heart is too broken, exhausted, and not in the mood. i enjoy myself too much right now to let anyone enter my little world of fun.
books books and more books. i need to read. so i will
and school…i think its time to fullfill my dream.
