bad hair day…
i haven’t written in what seems to be forever. i think my brain is so overwhelmed with thoughts that i dont even know where to start. its strange to feel so overwhelmed with thoughts, yet so empty with emotions. i guess in some way i need a certain amount of peacful insanity to beable to write and latley it just feels like a numbing mess up there in my head. its like having a bad hair day…your clothes look great, your having a skinny day so you think all is inline, and then you look at your hair and its a mess. its like exposure to your soul, nothing is perfect. something always seems to be out of line. i recently discovered my mind thinking “miserey loves comapny but i am tired of being invited”. i suffer from having a great life, with great family love, and a small percentage of wonderful friends (which should always remain a small percentage) however there is messes, of course which i created for myself. My spring brain cleaning has not been going to well. its the lack of letting go, the lack of forgivness, and the want to forget that will never happen. if i could find a way to not care, to not stress, to not listen, to rise above it all, i think i would hit purity, possibly inner peace.
