Petal through it...: Archive

Dear Project 365

thecoffeegirl: I have failed you miserably. Sometimes I take several photos all at once, and then sometimes not for days. And with the job craziness, plus figuring out another new commute, plus that whole going to the gym thing, I barely have time to make more than PB&J for dinner, let alone take pictures or even post those i’ve done. I haven’t checked email or tumblr for a couple days either....

Jan 21st

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The Invitation

this is right to me. The Invitation It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon… I...

Jan 16th

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i am sick today, my head feels like it might explode, my throat is gone, like it completely dissaperared, my eyes itch, i sound more like a man with every word i speak, i smell like lysol…but that is not stopping me from seeing Donna and the Buffalo tonight :) attacking one new years resolution at a time…#4: see more music!

Jan 16th

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FYI

cardinalcave: The symptoms of Ménière’s disease occur suddenly and can arise daily or as infrequently as once a year. Vertigo, often the most debilitating symptom of Ménière’s disease, typically involves a whirling dizziness that forces the sufferer to lie down. Vertigo attacks can lead to severe nausea, vomiting, and sweating and often come with little or no warning. Some individuals with...

Jan 16th

FOR CARDSFANS AND FAM- Peace-Out!! R XO

cardinalcave: THERE WILL BE NO CANCELLED SHOWS AND THIS CARDINALS TOUR WILL HAPPEN AS PLANNED SO PLEASE UNDERSTAND I AM JUST SHARING THIS NOW SO THAT IN A FEW DAYS OR LESS IT WILL BE NO PROBLEM AND NOT INTERFERE WITH HAVING A PEACEFUL TOUR AND A NICE TIME PLAYING THE GIGS BOOKED. FOR CARDINALS FANS and FAM, I am very sorry if my blog post concerning my need to walk away for...

Jan 15th

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Jan 13th

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i haven’t written in a long long time and i know that it was one of my new years resolutions but i just havn’t been feeling like it. its the best way for me to release my anxietys and stresses but i just lack the interest. i will push myself today. i guess there is lack of chaos in my life. insanity always leads me to some great writing. love makes my heart beat. and for the...

Jan 13th

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the cardinology mail i just recieved put a huge smile on my face . i haven’t been listening for a little bit and have been tempting my brain with other music but God i do love them all and the way their music makes me want to fly.

Jan 6th

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Jan 4th

and so it begins

its very exciting. i am really looking forward to grabbing this year by the balls and making it my year to just be completly me without worry. i am quitting a lot of old habits, smoking is the hardest. i quit, but occasionally i find myself really stressed and i turn to them. of course i smoke one and throw the rest away…silly and stupid. but not anymore. i would be really pissed at...

Jan 1st

Dec 30th

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456

is the number of resolutions i have for myself. not really but kinda. i never do anything like that for fear of failing. so this year i just make a huge list and what i accomplish i will be so happy about. i made my resolutions yesterday, and started them yesterday as well. Jan 1st will be a clean start for me. i much needed one. i am simply just releasing all the “crap” in my...

Dec 30th

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Dec 19th

Dec 11th

SET-LIST and WHY WE ARE USING ONE w OASIS

cardinalcave: Hello, So the Cardinals and myself like to bust things out on the fly. this works for us as a team. it’s what we do and somewhat how many songs are constructed. That being said we are not doing that right now. why? 1. We have a HARD-CORE curfew in the US w OASIS. 1 hour. This leaves us to need to be in a position to be WAY ON-TIME for our Amazing Fucking Crew to be able to just...

Dec 10th

Dec 2nd

sugar and spice and not so nice.

nobody reads my blog so its my personal journal of venting….which i love. high maintance friendships need to be let go of as soon as possible in my life. they seem to be bringing me anxiety. like i alway feel like i did something wrong, as if i dissapointed them in some way. i hate when in a friendship you feel like someone has the upper hand. its such a bad way to be. friendship...

Dec 1st

anxiety is horrible and i have it today.

Dec 1st

Watch

davidryanadams: “HalloweenHead” RA solo Bedroom HAPPY THANKSGIVING ALL!!!! saaaaaaaweet

Nov 27th

my heart route.

you were supposed to be my map of good intentions, my journey to understanding their nature, my highlighed route must have been a mistake beacuse this is not the one i intended. to be continued…

Nov 13th

““Two” If you take me back Back to your place I’ll try not...”

– ~Ryan Adams

Nov 13th

unfinished business- good morning

cardinalcave: mornings. exactly just mornings in general are so my thing. I especially learned to love them in my second year of sobriety. It was for me, as a singer and guitar player in a band, something else, I tell you, entirely than what it meant to me as just a man. I only had to learn to live with stage-fright. Easy. Just have it. Ha. Which I did, and by trial and error, by falling down...

Nov 13th

bad hair day...

i haven’t written in what seems to be forever. i think my brain is so overwhelmed with thoughts that i dont even know where to start. its strange to feel so overwhelmed with thoughts, yet so empty with emotions. i guess in some way i need a certain amount of peacful insanity to beable to write and latley it just feels like a numbing mess up there in my head. its like having a bad hair...

Nov 13th

spring cleaning in the fall

i am taking my brain on a little vacation but before i do, i need to clean it all out of the old crap. it is insanly hard to clean, but with each little step i take to starting a new slate i feel a little better.

Nov 3rd

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dradams: HOTEL ROCK director’s cut of “GoodByeSunshine” i look haggard in this. damn. what ev. pure

Oct 7th

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dradams: CARDINALS - “Come Pick Me Up” LIVEJAM clip. you guys are the reason music has swept me off my feet…

Oct 7th

words of bliss

i unfolded my mind to hear your thoughts. i liked what i heard everything was clean and simple, new and dry i faded my past and pressed it behind my hearts wall you have a way in

Sep 25th

how can we tell

that the feeling inside is true? when we havn’t seen the face to complete the thought but the words through the tunnel invade our hearts. i’ll let it simmer in slowly, but will hold back enough to not make the same mistake twice. my mind is always one step ahead of the beat my heart plays….always ready to indulge in the feast…impulsive always.

Sep 23rd

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dradams: “EVERYBODY KNOWS” HomeJam (w hidden R2D-Tune track) so happy!

Sep 23rd

la de da

its amazing that the voice of one person, can make you smile

Sep 15th

K.O. Computer (goodnight internet)

dradams: Foggy, I am so fucking alone. I hate this. And me, with my one thousand distractions, what do they mean. They mean I am alone. Lonely. Insufferable to even myself. It feels awful. But I know who I am and what I am and what I like. And I dislike even thinking about things I dislike for I like things so much I feel like the weight of my own fucking nagging inspiration sometimes feel more...

Sep 15th

CTRL ALT DELETE

I wish that when i deleted numbers from my phone, it actually deleted them from my life. I unfortanitly have some meaningless people in my life that are not good for the soul. But on the bright side, I do have some really amazing friends that make the soul shine.

Sep 8th

life

i am in love with it today

Sep 5th

advice to myself

i think if i am out on a date, or in a conversation of possible interest, and the person i am talking to refrences howard stern more then once, i am out.

Sep 3rd

blank

i am totally numb today and have nothing to say. the extended weekend with the waves drew all the thoughts from my brain.

Sep 2nd

Watch

dradams: HOTELROCK version of “two” by Ryan Adams performed by Sad Company. property of lost highway (don’t worry i saved the CD ROM sized file dudes) hey ray…..xxx i would like to crawl into your brain and hang out for a month…i think thats as long as i would last.

Sep 2nd

super hero

i lost my bestfriend in a battle of expression. i told him your lame to his face of deseption. i remember my friends who are dead to themselves i would love for them to remember the depths that i felt. he deprived me of hopes that i once loved long ago he deprived me of fears that i feared all before and i hold him in sorrow with love i cant express, its all love that i felt when i wore...

Aug 30th

Aug 29th

sorrys

i suck at spelling.

Aug 29th

nature escapes

the ocean holds so many of my mistakes, thoughts, whispers, soul. the waves, the limitless seam of the earth, all leave me numb. its delightful. the moutains brought me love, funny that it disappeared when brought to the ocean.

Aug 29th

“The beauty of life is to experience yourself.”

– ~Yogi Tea THE BEST

Aug 29th

“Rather then love, than money, then faith, then fame, then fairness…give me...”

– ~Christopher McCandless

Aug 29th

“life is a chance love is infinity grace is reality”

– unknown

Aug 29th